Some people find it hard to believe, but I was a goth in high school. I wore black every day and I even had black sunglasses with red lenses (Those were my favorite!). I can't explain what it is about dressing a certain way, but it was the most comfortable I had ever felt back during the heady days of teenage turmoil.Anyways, that is not the point of my post. I was probably the most bouncy and cheerful of all the goths I knew at the time, which meant that I was under a completely different tier of weird. But I didn't like be sad or "emo". I was -- and still am -- a die-hard fan of The Cure. Robert Smith spoke to me somehow. He always cheered me up when I was sad. In fact, I felt that was why he named his band "The Cure" because his music is either happy and uplifting, or sad in a way that makes you ride out your pain and makes it feel a little less bad with every chorus you belt out. And this effected my overall outlook.
I feel like I owe him a lot for his therapeutic soundtrack. It made my life as a teen easier because I knew that if things were bad, I could just lock myself away in my room and listen to "Jupiter Crash" on repeat til 3am and I would feel better. It was that much of a sure thing.
I finally saw him live last year. It was such an amazing experience. Imagine spending most of your adolescent life turning to a man's music for emotional support, and then witnessing it live many years later.
If I had been fortunate enough to be in the front area, I probably would've been crying the entire time. I was so moved. It was the most personal music experience I have ever had in my life.In school I had earned my English teacher's trust and was allowed to leave class to go to the computer lab. My senior project was finished so I would spend this time reading these funny Q&A pages on their website. These were just questions people had submitted back then. Some of his answers were cryptic, which I found intriguing. Like the mention of Mary in various music videos, and someone asked him if there was a girl he was fond of. He says "Mary". I have always wondered who this girl was or if it is something else.
And my most favorite thing to learn was his love of science and astronomy. One person asked him if there was one thing he could bring with him if he was to be deserted on an island. And his answer was just his telescope. I remember reading this when I was 17 or 18 and thinking he was just the bees knees!
So imagine my surprise when I walk to our seats at the concert and he comes out to his cheering fans with thess beautiful blinking lights suspended above him. That stage was like a window into the night sky and I immediately knew why it was that way. It was like a secret that only I knew but most likely everyone else there did too.
I used to rent Staring at the Sea: The Images because it had some adorable music videos for the compilation album. It is probably my most favorite compilation out there. Here is my favorite song/video from the album -- The Lovecats. Probably the cutest song by Robert Smith to ever exist.








